AcidInsanity

- Name: Arielle/Arin
- Single or Taken: Taken (Meow ima ho)
- Sex: Crab
- Birthday: May 11

► Name ➔ Ariel
► Will you answer all questions truthfully ➔ Yes
► Are you single ➔ Nope
► Are you happy ➔ Mehh
► Are you bored ➔ Yeah
► Are you sad ➔ Not anymore really
► Are you Italian ➔ No sir
► Are you German ➔ No
► Are you Asian ➔ Dingding
► Are you angry ➔ Meh no
► Are you Irish ➔ No
► Are your parents still married ➔ Nope

TEN FACTS

► Birth Place ➔ Kauai
► Hair Color ➔ Black
► Eye color ➔  Dark Brown/Black
► Birthday ➔ May 11th
► Mood ➔ Uhm i don't know
► Gender ➔ Crab
► Lefty or Righty ➔ Right
► Summer or winter ➔ Winter
► Morning or afternoon ➔ Afternoon

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
► Are you in love ➔ Si
► Do you believe in love at first sight ➔ Meh not really
► Who ended your last relationship ➔ I did.
► Have you ever been hurt ➔ Yup
► Have you ever broken someone's heart ➔ Maybe, i think i did.
► Are you friends with your ex ➔ Hahahahahahahahahahaaha, how about no.
► Are you afraid of commitment ➔ Kinda, yes and no.
► Have you hugged someone within the last week? ➔ Yessir
► Have you ever had a secret admirer ➔  I don't know, i don't think so :I
► Have you ever broken your own heart? ➔ I'm not sure .-.

TEN CHOICES
► Love or lust ➔ love
► Lemonade or iced tea ➔ lemonaid
► Cats or Dogs ➔ FUuuuuuu, all the animals please.
► A few best friends or many regular friends ➔ few best
► Television or internet ➔ Interwebs
► Pepsi or Coke ➔ Pepsi
► Wild night out or romantic night in ➔ romantic night in
► Day or night ➔ night
► IM or Phone ➔ phone

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
► Been caught sneaking out ➔ nope
► Fallen off the stairs ➔ yes
► White water rafted ➔ nope
► Finished an entire jawbreaker ➔ nah
► Wanted something/someone so badly it hurt? ➔ I guess :/ I don't know
► Prank called a store ➔ nope
► Skipped school ➔ nope, not unless it was for a purposeful reason
► Wanted to disappear ➔ Oya

TEN PREFERENCES
► Smile or eyes ➔ DAMMMNNNNIITTTTT. Eyes are a big factor yes, but a smile is more noticable so?
► Light or dark hair ➔ Depends on the person
► Fat or skinny ➔ I don't mind, more leaning towards fit people.
► Shorter or Taller ? ➔ I'm really short so I hope they're tall, or at least taller than me :I
► Intelligence or Attraction ➔ Intelligence
► Jock or Nerd ➔ Nerd <3
► Hook-up or Relationship ➔ Relationship
► Funny and poor OR rich and serious ➔ funny and poor

LAST

► Last Phone Call ➔ Dj~
► Last phone call you received ➔ Uhm skype or phone?
► Last person you hung out with ➔ Mikel, Leo, Krystal, Katie, andddd Sacho
► Last thing you ate ➔ Pasta
► Last thing you drank ➔ Water
► Last site you went to ➔ dA
► Last place you were ➔ School  

RELATIONSHIPS
► Are you in a committed relationship ➔ Oh yeah!
► When was your last relationship ➔ A little over a year ago :I
► Have you ever loved a guy/girl more than anything else in the world? ➔ I wouldn't put it that way, but I do love my significant other yes.
► Do you still love them ➔ What did i just say?!
► Do you like someone right now ➔ Oya

FAMILY
► Do you and your family get along  ➔ Ehhhhhhh....
► Would you say you have a "messed up life"➔ Eh, not really, kinda i guess? Not too messed up but still messed up in a way.
► Have you ever run away from home ➔ I've wanted to
► Have you ever gotten kicked out ➔ Nope
► If so, how long ➔ *nothing to do here*

FRIENDS
► Do you secretly hate one of your friends ➔  No
► Do you consider all of your friends good friends ➔ No
► Who are/is your best friend(s) ➔ Sachi, Mikel, and Dj
► Would you die for them ➔ Oh yes. Not even joking. <3
► Who knows everything about you ➔ Everything?..... welll, most things. Maybe Sachi? I'm not sure

SCHOOL CONFESSIONS
[ ] Talked back to a teacher.
[ ] Been kicked out of a class.
[x] Worn your pajamas to school.  
[x] Had your tooth fall out during school.
[x] Gotten yourself lost in your school.
[ ] Broken the dress code in your school.
[ ] Completely and utterly failed a test.
[ ] Left your class without asking anybody.
[ ] Missed a whole week of school for something stupid.
[ ] Thrown up your lunch in school.

HOME LIFE CONFESSIONS
[/] Argue with your parent[s] a lot.
[ ] Argue with your brother[s]/sister[s] a lot.
[x] Do your own laundry.  
[/] Cook dinner once in a while.
[ ] Are loud and obnoxious at home.
[x] Wear pajamas when you are not going to go anywhere
[/] You sleep in very long.
[ ] All you do is watch television/go on the internet.
[x] Your parents are divorced.
[ ] Your family makes you cry a lot.
[ ] One or both of your grandparents live with you.
[/] You can't stand being with your parents.

FRIEND CONFESSIONS
[ ] You currently dislike one or more of your friends.
[x] You are jealous of one or more of your friends.
[x] You have known a friend your whole life.
[xxxx] Your friends are all taller than you. (FUUUUUUUUU)
[x] You have been ditched by a friend.
[x] You have memorized a friends phone number.
[x] You have lost/forgotten a friends phone number.
[x] You have been to most of your friends houses.
[x] You love most of your friends.

HABIT CONFESSIONS
[x] You bite your nails.
[/] You have an odd obsession with knives.
[ ] You cannot sleep with the door closed.
[x] You cannot sleep with the door open.
[x] There is at least one sound you cannot stand.
[x] You write stories about mad cannibalistic serial killers.
[/] You are good at telling lies.

LOVE CONFESSIONS
[x] You currently like/love someone.
[x] You want to kill one of your exs.
[ ] You can't stay committed for an unusually long time.
[ ] You get bored of your crush/bf/gf easily.
[ ] A crush/bf/gf has called you self-centered before.
[x] Your ex has dumped you for another person.
[ ] You don't want a bf/gf at the moment.

PERSONAL OPINION CONFESSIONS
[/] You hate George Bush. (A strongdislike)
[ ] Abortion is horrible and should be illegal.
[x] Gay marriage is fine by you.  
[/] Boys make better friends than girls do.
[ ] Pink is an ugly color.
[x] Needles aren't so horrible.
[/] Human flesh tastes like fine aged veal. (or so ive heard)
[x] You have plenty of secrets. (trololololololo)

"HAVE YOU EVER" CONFESSIONS
[x] Fallen up the stairs.
[x] Had your shoelaces tied together.
[ ] Had a nail fall off.
[ ] Captured, Manipulated, or Destroyed a soul. (.-.)
[x] Slapped someone across the face.
[ ] Killed someone.
[ ] Worn something inside out for a whole day

So today I kinda broke down but I know that it's not over yet....
I don't know, I hate it when I have these random depressive states, I honestly think I may be a little depressed or manic depressed, I can't tell. It's just so random and it makes me think about everything, over-think everything to be exact and then I just lose it.
So right now I'm just going to vent and rant because I need an outlet... And i honestly don't have one other than this...
Cause i'm the type of person who will go and help others, make sure everyone else is happy, and though I am aware of my feelings, I don't like to spill my problems onto others, it's not cause I don't trust people, it's just that the people that I do trust, I care too much for than to have to push my problems onto them, I feel bad when I do. They have their problems, why should I add mine to theirs?
And yeah I have my own problems, but out of my friends I should be the one to have it easy. So why am I complaining? I don't know... It sucks, I always feel guilty an so selfless, I think it'd be easier if I just locked myself in my room, take online classes, and become a shut in. It'll be easier than to have to always care for others and then feel bad if they worry about me.
Cause i'm just a fuck up of a friend honestly, I try to help but it seems like I just fuck everything up in the end.
I feel like I deserve to lose my friends that I have.
Ever since spring started I felt like I was going to lose one of them, and now I feel like i'm losing all of them.
One of them had gotten through a fallout with a guy that I thought would be compatible with her and it felt like after that she wouldn't want to hang out with me and just shut herself from my world, but yet she's still her.
My other two friends have this great relationship and I tried helping them work out problems with each other, and I would help them, one on one, and they had a little difficulty due to lack of communication but they're still together happy and well. However, it seems like I didn't help, it seems like I was the one who had brought them down...
And finally the fourth one. I don't what I did wrong exactly, but I feel terrible. I hate hypocrites, but apparently I'm acting like one according to her because I think her relationship is going too fast. I'm sorry, but you asked me what I thought and I just told the truth. And even if I think it's going too fast I'm not the only one who thinks so, yet I'm the only one you're raging at. At least I think you guys are at least a good couple, I think you guys actually feel for each other. But apparently it doesn't matter because it's going too fast in my opinion.
It's not like I have relationship problems of my own. Yeah, oh we're so cute cause he's off bettering himself so we can have a better future together and i'm here waiting for him. But it's hard! Everyone thinks it's cute as hell, and that we're so strong, but we have our breakdowns! We have our spats. There's never going to be a perfect relationship, and ours is far from perfect.
I wish I could explain everything more but it's so difficult...
I can't even tell my best friends everything!!!
I can't tell them how I truely feel. Cause I don't want them to leave... I want to be the one to help them, I don't want to fuck things up because I'm whining. I don't want them to have to worry about me.
I can't tell them everything....
I'm afraid if I do.... I don't like being afraid....
I don't like dragging people down and fucking things up...
I don't know why I feel like this, I just- I'm lost...

Angsty vent/rant over....